The spiritual journey is not a matter of consciousness or goodness or godliness, it’s a matter of relative density. There is an altitude of perspective at which you were designed to reside, but you are currently at, not just at a lower level, but a lower stratum. Instead of achieving your natural point of neutral buoyancy, you had your emotional energy outflow restricted and rerouted, forcing you to settle into a negative buoyancy at an unnatural depth. Restoring free flow is accomplished by unclogging pipes full of emotional sludge; it’s that simple but not that easy. This obstruction has created what, in any healthy human, would be viewed as an abomination, a grown-up in a child’s body, except it’s the other way around. Your body continued to grow while your heart and mind were trapped at a pre-teen level; still an abomination but less visible and, because it applies to everyone, more acceptable. That’s the halfborn phenomenon that defines humanity in a nutshell, and only you and I and a handful of others seem to know about it.