It’s healthy to be made unhealthy by the herd environment; to desire escape, to detoxify your spirit, to gravitate away from the things of man. Right now, in every moment, you should be growing more and more intolerant of the presence of ego. You should find it alien, it should make you feel soul-sick, you should reject it like a mismatched organ, puke it out like a poison. It is positive and desirable that you should find your current circumstances negative and undesirable. It’s healthy to be repelled and repulsed by the ego-dense herd environment. Discontent incentivizes change.