You are free to discover your unique pattern and explore your authentic potential, but to do it, you have to rise above the herd and make the transition to adulthood. This is what you’re asking; if there actually is somewhere for you to go, somewhere beyond ego, and there is, but it has nothing to do with heaven or evolution or ascension or any other fairytale narrative. It has to do with your own unique pattern, and you can only discover it by growing into it.